Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Double Digits

Its offical Alex will be here in 99 days.

Im so excited I cant wait!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Bad surprises during pregnancy

So as everyone knows your organs get shoved upwards to make room for the baby and your growing uterus. Well in my case in doing so it has aggravated mt gallbladder to the point of hurting. But why would it start hurting. Hippy Hooray I have gallstones. Even though I have never had a attack before they start now because of lack of room in my belly. I went to the ER Monday morning at about 12 AM. I thought I was going into Preterm labor. OH MY GOD the pain was bad. All around my stomach in my back, in my ribs, it made me short of breath. So it admitted me right away. Ran every test imaginable. And came up with nothing. They had no clue what could be causing the pain. A pulmonologist, lung specialist, came said well made you have a clot in your lungs. Ran a test, came back negative. They released me at about 4 pm Monday evening. So the next day I go and see my Doctor, he says made its your gallbladder. So I had that tested a couple of days later.
Thankfully they found gallstones.
Unthankfully they found gallstones.
Because now that means I more than likely will have to have surgery after Alex gets here. Unless something bad happens between now and then. Which since having a cervix over 25 puts you in the low risk category for pre-term labor, and mines a 46, Im praying that it stays that way until March 4th or so.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

A day late and a dollar short

But yall get the ideal. Yesterday marked 20 days till Thanksgiving. And I had been meaning to post all day. But with Physical Therapy, which ended yesterday too, taking Karmin out, and trying to straighten up the mess that is our house well lets just say I never made it on here.

So I had planned on nameing 20 things Im thankful for, but since I still have crap to do, and I need to go cook. Im only going to list 10. Ill probably come back for part 2 and name 10 more, who knows.

1. WH for being so patient with me and all my hormonal, crazy mood swing, wanting to kill him some times, bad temper's. He loves me still. Even when I question why, he just says he does. And for him being there for me non-stop in this crazy 23 weeks that has past I love him more and more each day.

2. Alex. Point Blank. I love and am so thankful for my son that I could just cry. He is amazing already. I cant tell he is going to be stubborn like his daddy. And from the ultrasounds he appears to have his daddy's chin, which I think is adorable. He makes me smile every time I feel him kick, even when it hurts me. I'm so thankful that I get to be him mama.

3. My amazingly amazing family. I have no clue what I would do with out them. If they didn't listen to my craziness. If they didn't believe in me. Hell If they weren't there for me I have no clue how I could think Id be able to handle Alex. But thankfully I have been blessed with sisters so amazing that I don't have to worry about buying any of the big stuff, i.e. crib, stroller, car seat, etc. And they make sure to tell me that if I need anything, or anyone at anytime I can call any of them, Even though Em lives 3 hours away, I know she'd listen to me.

4. Honestly my mother. Shes never really been there before, but shes damn well making up for it now. And for Alex's sake I'm thankful. I think she might actually be involved in his life. Which makes me happy.

5. WH's parents/siblings. They are amazing. They too have made me feel like when I get to "That Point" Ill still be able to handle it.

6. GOD. I know he should have been higher on the list, but I'm not going in any certain order. Without him, I know I would probably fail as a mom. But I know with his help and his guidance Ill be able to handle it.

7. Karmin. I love my doggy what can I say. Shes been there when me and WH have gotten into it and I have been at my emotional wits end. Shes been there to lay her large head on my lap and look up at me with those big brown eyes and give me some piece of mind that it would all be ok. And so far it has.

8. Having a good Physical Therapist. He was funny and nice and made coming to the clinic enjoyable. Well except when my hips would pop out and he couldnt get them back in. Im thankful that its over. But Im going to miss them all there.

9. Our Friends. KAM has been great. Shes been there when I just needed to get away and out of the house. She has been one of the bestest best friends I could have ever asked for. And Most of WH's friends have been surprisingly helpful.

10. Having this blog. Sometimes you just need to get it off your chest. And with Blogger I can. I can type it all out and let others read and see whats going on in my life. And I cant see that shit happens to everyone, and celerbrate others good times as well.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Sad times mixed with good news

Well I found out over the weekend, Halloween day to be exact, that my granny Bee is going to die. She has cancer. Alot of cancer. She has it in her stomach, her liver, her pancreas, and its still spreading. So with so much of it theres no way the doctors could do surgery to get it, they would probably misss some and then theres the very high chance that because of her age she wouldnt make it thru surgery anyway. So the doc gave her 6 months to a year, and hopefully she wont have to be in pain.

And the good news in all of this. I wont have to be stressed out about where we live anymore. We are moving. I am so happy because I didnt want my baby to be here. (Theres drug activity around us, I just know it and I dont trust anyone in the neighborhood.) So its better for my sanity and my little one if we move, and praise the Lord to the highest he made it happen!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I hope Alex takes after daddy, and baby shower update

If he does then he will be one happy and very funny baby!

My Baby Daddy quote of the day is:

"Just check the DNA sample I left on there!"


Now back story on why he said this

I have an Avon party the I RSVP to about a month ago. Its from 7:00-9:00pm tonight. We are going out of town tomorrow night and we need to borrow his dads SUV because my sister Nay and Mama D are coming with us. I know doesnt sound very romantic, "hey baby you like that?" "Shh my sister will hear you!" HAHA But sadly no thats not why we are going out of town. We are going to Cincinnati, OH to Kings Island there for fright fest, Halloween Haunt, what the hell ever it is called. My other sister Em and Captain America plus Hay-Bug and Capt Jr. are coming too! Yeah I know a nice family outing. But Em doesnt ride rides and since Im handicapped from riding anything I get to spend some good quality time with my oldest sister and Mama D! Which makes me very very happy.

Anyways back to the main story(thank you ADD for getting me off track) Im supposed to go and see the Future-Father-In-Law and the Future-Mother-In-Law plus sisters in laws. FMIL wants to see my belly since it will be her and FFIL first grandbaby, let alone grandson! I tell WH I already have plans, to which this conversation comes

WH: Your going with me to pick up the SUV
Me: I have plans baby
WH: Dont make me pull rank, Im the baby daddy and I need you.
Me: *fit of giggles* your going to pull rank *another fit of giggles* and why do I have to go, its just picking up the SUV.
WH: Yeah but they want to see you, and yea Ill pull rank Im more important. Plus you can explain the ultrasound picks better than I can. Besides the "see the arrow, the arrow is pointing at his pecker"
Me: Well what time does dad get off work. *holding back laughter*
WH: between 7 and 8
Me: The party starts at 7. But I guess when we leave there you can take me
WH: that means I need to put the gas in it, and that takes gas
Me: She lives 5 seconds from our house.
WH: Still takes like a quarter in gas
Me: Ill give you the dang quarter
WH: from where, the change thing... most of those are mine
Me: I put money in there too ya know
WH: Yeah but most of them are mine, so you will probably pull one of my quarters out
Me: How would you know, do you have them labeled?
WH: Yep, Just check the DNA sample Ive left on there. *starts to laugh*
Me: I love you!

Now on for baby shower news, I have all the big stuff taken care of!!
The joys of having 3 older sisters who are all excited that Im having a baby, and are so willing to help me and WH out. The high chair, the bassinet, the baby seat, the stroller, the crib, the swing, etc. its all taken care of. Im so excited!

Oh and his name is Christopher Alexander Edward

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I so love the smell of Holidays in the air

Here we are getting ready to hit "The Holiday Season" head on. Halloween is just 16 days away, and just in case you are wondering Im thinking about being a pregnant Padmé ya know from Star Wars.. and WH wants to my either an evil Anikin or Darth Vader. He hasnt decided yet.

And no Im usually not this dorky, but God love my hunny he has rubbed off one me!

Then theres Thanksgiving which is 6 weeks away, and one of my favorites by the way! Who can not love a holiday that encourages you to over eat, and then eat some more! YUM Daddy Randy makes the best fried turkey anywhere. Plus on the up side, I can eat all I want and more and not look like a fat ass because Im expecting. HAHA Yay me! And I have so much to be thankful for this year. My wonderful baby daddy. My wonderful son. My wonderful family who has been there for me no matter what through out my life. I love them so much and I dont know what Id do without them

Then theres Christmas.

I love Jesus. I love him with everything in me. But excuse the heck out of me if Im the only person on the planet that doesn't enjoy Christmas. I love the celebrating of Christ birth. I love that aspect of it. But dear lord please forgive me if I do get a little tried of all those corny Christmas songs, and decorations that people start playing in Oct, and sometimes put up then too. If you are one of them... Im sorry if this offends you but YOU DRIVE ME NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the Christmas trees all decorated beautifully. But not before Thanksgiving! Thats my one rule!

Ill post again later with my "Thankful List" But right now Im starving, and the babys really want BLTS!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Im seeing blue ....




I almost cried and I did let a out a nice woohoo when the lady showed me his lovely penis! But me being me had to see it again when the doc came in. And my stubborn baby decided that I had already seen it enough and wasnt going to cooperate. He already has his mama and daddys attitude toward things.

So here are some pics of the baby, sorry they are crappy, I dont have a scanner.

So call me a copycat

I have seen these and seen these, and never really wanted to keep full 100% track of all of these things, until now. Now when Im half way there and relize in just a few short months the baby will be here. So here it goes

How far along? 19 weeks and 6 days
Total weight gain/loss: believe it or not, just 6 lbs
Maternity clothes? yes
Sleep: almost non existant... cant get comfortable
Best moment this week: finding out Im haveing a lovely baby boy!!
Movement: yep :)
Gender: boy!
Labor Signs: No!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: feeling well. and not wanting to eat everything in sight
What I am looking forward to: buying blue!!
Weekly Wisdom: Wanting to punch the Ultrasound tech in the face because shes being super rude is normal Im sure. And it does pass as soon as the doctor comes in!
Milestones: Finding out its a beautiful bounceing boy!

Friday, September 18, 2009

YaY for being one of the special cases!

Im 16 weeks and 1 day today. Since I was about 10 weeks maybe 9 weeks, I have been having ALOT of lower back pain, and even some sciatic nerve pain. I know, I know.. Im to early for this.. so says my ENTIRE FAMILY! I talk to the OB doc and he tells me that if it keeps up Im going to have to go to physical therapy. Next visit comes up, and I tell them the pain is still her and getting a little worse. So Now I got to Physical therapy 3 days a week!!

My first visit the doc sits a heating pad on my back for about 30 mins. Then I got to lay on my side and get a wonderful back rub plus a few mins to stretch my hips out just alittle.

My second visit. Different doc but this one was way nicer. Same thing as before, kinda. I got the heating pad, and the back rub. But as he was stretching me out he felt a knot in the lower back, two of them actually, and proceeds to tell me that they are indeed knotted muscles and he will try to help work them out while I was there, but cant do it all at once cause Id be in so serious pain. Oh and that Im falling apart with all my joints cracking and popping as he moved me around.

My third day was much like the day before. Heating pad, rub down, laughing at how many times my joints crack, etc. My joints are already really limber, actually my physical therapist said today "yeah I can manipulate all of these joints and I shouldn't be able to do that yet. Its to early in your pregnancy!"

Yay me. NOT!

Then to top it off as he was stretching me out my hip did what I used to think was normal, and pop seemingly out of place and the doc felt it. And confirmed that it is indeed trying to pop out! He told me I was going to be a complicated case, but at least Im not annoying like some are. LMAO! Im glad Im not annoying to you to doc!

Oh and I think I felt the baby move for the first time today. Like actual movement. It felt like a flutter in my lower abdomen. But then again it could have been gas?! I really dont know yet.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

I can tell September is coming!

My allergies are kicking my ass! And if they were kicking it any harder Id have to file assault charges against them! Oh My God! First I wake up with a little bit of a sore throat. No biggie! Then here comes the sinus drainage, yet again no biggie. But with in the last hour I have had a sinus headache with sinus pressure to boot that makes me feel like Ive shoved something up my nose! So right now I'm trying to find out what I can and cant not take for my allergies. I had a huge print out of the most common symptoms and the things you can take, but I have sadly filed it away with other baby stuff(my moms obsessed with scrapbooks)!

Some Randomness as usual!

Me and KAM went to Wal.mart with her mama and little sister yesterday. While her mom and little sister were shopping we went to look at some baby stuff and some things for her wedding. I found the cutest little jumper for a boy, it says "daddy's little handyman" across the front, and it looks like it has a little tool belt across the belly! Too Cute! Oh and for a girl I found the cutest little shoes for her and some Little Mermaid PJs! Too cute!!

I cant wait for October to get here, I really want to know what it is already!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Penis or Va-Jay-Jay

Personally I'm so hoping for a boy! There are a ton of girls in my family(4 girls with 2 boys, plus 3 nieces, plus 8 aunts and only 4 uncles) and Id love to have a bouncing baby boy. But what wins out is a healthy baby! If I have a girl that's less clothes Ill have to buy because of my big sisters baby girl. And I don't think Id worry so much about her getting someone pregnant as opposed to her getting knocked up. So there are perks.

In other news. I still have abnormal cells on my cervix, theres three main regions that need to be tested but have to wait until the baby comes. And after that I can go back to the same doctor to see if anything is cancerous. As long as they don't but that crap on my cervix again I think Ill be OK. Cause let me tell you that was NOT a very pleasant doctor visit. For one I got to see what the inside of my own Vagina looks like. Not really something I ever wanted to see. Then afterwards was the pain. O-M-G! I don't think I have ever, ever experienced pain like that. Not even when I hyper-extended my fingers and caused a hairlined crack in my knuckle. Not even when I tore some ligaments in my right shoulder(still have yet to get that fixed). And not even when I wrecked my four wheeler flipping it on top of me! These cramps were a nightmare. No a nightmares nightmare!! I was doubled over in pain in the middle of the grocery store! So not fun!

Oh and my lower back/ hip joint pain is only going to get worse. I talked to my doctor about it and the doctor says that it shouldn't really be happening this early in my pregnancy, but since it is there are some stretches I can try to do to ease the pain, and more than likely the pain will get worse the closer I get to delivery! Just my luck.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Tired and pool time!

OK so good news for today... other than my not eating as quickly as my little bundle feels I should and getting sick because of it I have felt really good so far today!


So today Keylin was at my dads. I haven't introduced him yet. So I will. Hes amazing. He will be 10 months old on the 24Th of this month. I was there when he was born and almost cut the umbilical cord(his dad was never there, and his mom lived with my dad cause shes a ho who had no where to go when she was knocked up and we made nice with each other). I love that kid. If push came to shove I would kidnap him in a heartbeat gladly take him off his ungrateful druggie mothers hands! I know that sounds harsh and all of you moms out there are probably thinking daggers at me for calling this lady a bad mother. Let me explain. She smokes pot and drives with her baby, she also snorts pills up her nose and drives with her baby. She took her baby off formula because it costs to much, now only gets whole milk or Mt. Dew(unless hes with me!) And YES YES YES I have called social services on her, and NOTHING was done. They came to her house took a peek at the kid said everything looked fine and left did a investigation on "her" and nothing showed up! Its so frustrating knowing that she doesn't take care of him like she should. Needless to say I gladly take him whenever she needs some time to do whatever.

OK on with the pool story. And I have pictures.

I'm pregnant. I get hot. I get hot really easily. It was over 90 degrees today with over 50% humidity. Its currently 86.7 degrees and 46% humidity. Needless to say it was a hot one for my town today!! So I talked my dad to buying a kiddie pool for Me Keylin so he could keep cool while we watched him today! He absolutely loved it!! We played for over an hour in our little pool. I had a blast and so did it.

It was an amazing day!

Monday, August 3, 2009

Weird Sleep

OK I know you have crazy dreams when your prego. But no one ever clued me in on almost none of them making sense. Last nights however made perfect sense. I don't EVER want my baby to be kidnapped, and I will kick anyones ass who does, and if your a certain girl who Ill just call cornfield and you come anywhere near my baby I'm going to scream! Okie Dokie!


OK I know most of your are going WTF is she talking about. So Ill explain. In my dream my darling little baby got kidnapped at the grocery store... along with all my groceries. Cornfield was the one who took my baby, along with one of her nasty men. And to make it worse she was BREASTFEEDING MY BABY! But I got my little one back because WH kicked some serious ass!

I hope no more dreams like that. I much prefer the ones where they make no sense!

In other news.. I'm still having morning sickness problems. I know certain things will make me feel sick, but no one ever said that just the thought of something will make me puke my guts up! And no one ever told me that nausea can last 24/7 or that you can puke when you havent eaten or drank anything! YUCK! But its so worth it. In a few short months I get to see my little one and I know Ill forget everything that was bad about bring him/her into this world. Maybe thats why no one told me... they all forgot!

Monday, July 27, 2009

My ER visit

So I have been really sick the past couple of days and I finally went to the ER yesterday when no matter what I ate, no matter what I drank it all came back up. I got 2 liters of fluid in my IV, plus 2 doses of Phengren, plus some blood work, plus a new RX for my vomiting. When my blood work came back my ER doc say that all my vomiting was caused by higher levels of hormones in my body than usual and that I needed to go see my OB sooner than my next scheduled appointment!

OK at this point I'm going over all kinds of things in my mind.
1) I hate going to the doctor, but its for my little bean, so no matter how many times they poke me and take my blood, and make me miserable it is so worth it in the end!
2) Higher levels of hormones. Wait one second. Doesn't higher levels mean multiple births. Does this mean I'm having twins.
3) Twins, Twins, Twins, Twins!

When I got home from the ER, after my 5 hours of being there, I went straight to sleep. In my opinion only my OB can tell me if I'm having twins, cause I have looked up higher levels of hormones until I cant anymore. And I'm not going to stress about two babies. If I am meant to have 2 then I will have 2. Right??!!

Please just please wish me luck with all of this.

OH PS. WH got an extened cab truck. So the baby/babies will have somewhere to sit even if they ride with him. Im so glad that I have one less stress on my list.

Saturday, July 25, 2009


**If you get queasy don't read any further, its kinda graphic**

My great day(yesterday) of only puking once was shattered today!
I think I actually puked up bits of my stomach up!
I mean I thought veins were going to bust in my head, cant breath cause its coming up and stuck at the same time, heaves!
Horrible, Horrible day!
My poor WH called when he got to the store to see if in the 7 mins it takes to get to the store my stomach had settled down, and he proceeded to name foods off. Needless to say thank god a garbage can was sitting near by and no small children(besides the one in my belly) were there to witness the seemingly normal conversation in up in the toilet, so to speak!
Thank goodness the day is almost over. I don't know how much more of this my body can take.
So if any of you have any advice, please, please feel free to share! Id be more than grateful!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Belly Pics and Karmin

Karmin being too cute

7 weeks

6 weeks

Little did I know I was knocked up in this pic!

Eating for two?

Yea I'm trying to do that. I went to the doctor last Monday, the 13Th. My weight was 137 lbs. I went to the health dept this Wednesday. My weight was 137.3 lbs. WHAT THE HELL! I knew I had been sick. Like cant eat anything, nothing sounds good, never want to hear the word food again, sick!! But I cant believe I haven't put on more weight! So as of now I'm trying to eat all the time. Healthy eating mind you! Im snacking on Multi-Grain Jumbo Rice Krispies. Cheese. Fruit. But I still end up throwing my ever loving guts up at least 2 times a day. Which is WAYY better than the 38956349 times it was before! So wish me luck on keeping my food down, and getting my weight up!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Oh Happy Day

First things first. Wh got his old Job back. They laid him off on Friday. And sent an email to TSS(Technical Staffing Solutions) and asked for them to get a hold of him and get him back. I'm so happy. All that stress(even thought I tried not to think about it) is now lifted off of me!

And I haven't been as sick today as I was yesterday!

And if you didn't know, I'm a huge history nerd/dork and yesterday all so marked 40 years since we went to the moon. Cool, right!

Monday, July 20, 2009

Ahh Mondays

I hate Mondays..

I'm sure everyone does!

But anyways... I'm almost over my morning sickness. I say almost because yesterday was a really good day.. almost no upset stomach, and I only puked once. Today I puked 3 times before 11! And then 2 more times on the way to moms. Ugg. I mean I threw up so hard that it made blood flow stop to my face for a split second, and I have some busted capillaries in my face..

I hate throwing up!

I'm sure everyone does!

KAM has started calling him/her bean baby! Because when she went with me to the doctor we both agreed it looked like a little lima bean on the monitor. WH hates it being called a bean. I think its cute.

I'm trying to find some maternity clothes. My hips are starting to get bigger.. which is great.. not like i didnt have big enough hips to start out with.

On a kinda sour note. I got two things of bad news. 1.) WH got laid off from work. The up side is that he should have another job here pretty soon. 2.) I had some abnormal cells on my cervix and I have to go back to the doctor to have them checked. The only thing they said was that its not cancer, and that its not and STD. So wish me luck with all of these sour notes. Please!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Doctor, Doctor

So I went to the Doctor on Monday. Yes I know its Wednesday, but morning sickness is kicking my ass and I'm lucky if I can pull myself out of the bed or away from the toilet!

The Doctor, which is not the one delivering my little bundle of joy(whoever is on call that day will), is great. I really really like her. As of Monday I was 6 weeks and 4 days. So that makes me 6 weeks 6 days today!

After the initial shock has wore off I'm super excited. At first I kept thinking how did this happen. We used protection. But I guess everything happens for a reason! I told my sisters and my brothers. My big Brother took it the hardest. He was crying when I got off the phone with him. Which makes me want to cry again just thinking about it. The sisters took it alright. I mean I'm the baby sister and they still think of me as if I'm 9 years old. But they are happy for me and are willing to help out in any way they can. Which right now is just being there for me. My mother finally came around after 5 days of not talking to me. And WH mom and dad are still making plans for babysitting when he/she gets here!

As soon as I get a good pic of the ultrasound Ill put it on here.
Wish me luck!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Turning Point!

Well I took a PT, and guess what. I'm KTFU! I don't know wither or not to laugh or cry or what. So I'm doing a mixture of both. WH is so excited, and so are his parents. My dad is so excited, and my mother pretty much disowned me! I havent told my sisters yet. That scares me more than anything. I go to the doctor on monday.. so wish me luck. Im in for a long hard 9 months, cause Im already having horrible horrible morning sickness!

Monday, July 6, 2009

Im super exhausted, and some random updates!

I cant sleep. Still. And where WH has been off for 4 days stright he likes to stay up till 1 or 2 in the morning, oh yay me! Needless to say Im happy hes back at work. I love him so much. But I need those extra hours at night!

WH truck still isnt fixed. Its almost there. I mean its thisclose to being done. But sadly not quite there.

I still cannot stand WH brother. I love his family, and I put up with his brother, but thats all I can do. So needless to say part of Saturday night was really crappy for me!

Oh and to top everything off I think Im getting sick....

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Happy Happy!

Independence Day FireworksImage by andy castro via Flickr

OK its the Fourth of July, and all of its amazing-ness! I don't know about you, but I love me some fireworks, both on the forth of July and anywhere else.(ha ha did you catch that innuendo)
Like I have said before, my family is very large, or at least large to me. With the 5siblings running out, and their children, and my "child", and the husbands and hunnys of the sibs, parents, friends of family, cousins, aunts, etc. It makes for a very big get together when we finally do. This year I dont know if we are going to set off our own fireworks or go watch the pretty ones the City lets off in College Park.
I have figured out that my babygirl cant come. I live beside a church, and two or three nights ago they decided to set fireworks off. Well Karmin freaked! At frist she was lookin out the window kinda growling. Then that progressed into her trying to get outside by trying to scratch the window open. Then when I took her outside, where it was louder she FREAKED! She tried everyway in the world to run off, and was makin this weird howling sound. So no fireworks for her!
I hope everyone has a safe and happy Fourth of July.

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Just a thought

I wonder.... how many times a day do you say that to yourself? I personally say and think it way to much. Like right now as I eat leftover Chicken Parmesan I wonder if it would have tasted better if I would have put more cheese in it. I wonder if the homemade yeast rolls I made were really all that good. WH loved them. I wonder why my dog tries to drink my sweet tea everytime I set it down and look away. But I guess thats just me... I think I will always be a wonder-er.

Hopefully the truck will be fixed this weekend.. I know I have said it before but Im so anxious for it to be done I cant wait. Wish us luck!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Two times Tuesday!

Yay for Dominos and all their pizza glory! I still prefer their chicken kickers, but then again I prefer chicken to just about anything!

So anyways, here I sit on this wonderful Tuesday morning, waiting for WH to call on lunch. And I have a killer sinius headache! Yay me.

I went to see my mother yesterday. Who would have thought that with everything going on with my father that I could turn to her. Thats a huge shock! Nither one of them were really there for me when I was younger. The only ones I really remember are my sisters. So why all of a sudden is she trying to actually be a mother? I wonder if its because that she knows that it hurts me more knowing that he doesnt really care about me then it does her? Or maybe because shes just putting on a face cause WH is in the picture?? Who knows... shes a crazy woman and always will be! You know how people say, "take a good look at your mother, cause you will be just like her when you get to her age." That makes me want to scream at them, well then someone put me in a home when I get that old. The thought of turning into anything like my mother scares the shit out of me! I really wish I could say, that Im making all of this up and shes the greatest mom in the whole world. But then Id be lying, and thats something I really hate doing!

So here it is not even 11:00am yet and I have done 2 loads of laundry! Im actually very proud of myself!

Just keep hoping that everything will work out sooner rather than later. And we will have the good truck fixed by this time next week!!!

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Monday, June 29, 2009

What a rush!

So I'm finally back from White Water Rafting, and I loved it. I love, love, love, love, loved it! It was so amazing that us girls are planning on going back before the end of summer and bringing the boys with us. Even Mama D loved it. Emmy and Nay sat in the front, and then it was me and Beck, and then 2 guys from Louisiana, and then Mama D and the guide! The only thing that sucks is my my lower back muscles hurt from where they are never used, and so do my shoulders but they are damaged goods anyways. And my lower abdomen it felt like I had done 100 crunches! And my left but cheek. I know that sounds weird, but let me explain! You know how if you put pressure on lets say your elbow for a long period of time, like you resting your head on it and it starts hurting, well that's kind the way my cheek feels. Like a deep tissue bruise! I know I'm whining like a baby, but it was so worth it! Ill have more pictures up whenever Emmy can figure out how to get the pictures off the disk we bought down there, and theres a bonus video of us too.. so lets just hope it works and yall can see it!

In other news, I think I have found the perfect place for us to rent. Our current situation with out roommates is getting crazy and I want out. Plus being by ourselves may make for a better relationship. We have been fighting a lot here lately, but I think that's cause of PMS, and me being so stressed out about our situation! But anyways, its a 2 bedroom one bathroom trailer, in a great quite neighborhood. Its not to far away from everything, and it has a backyard for Karmin to play in! Which makes me really happy. I'm going to call today and ask if we can come and look at the inside of it. Oh yeah, water and garbage is included in the rent. Which is good news for us! Hopefully I'll be able to find me a good job, or WH gets hired on full time so we know we are 100% financially stable! Which us luck. We really need it right now!!

Friday, June 26, 2009


I can not wait for these movies to come out!!

New Moon, Im so excited!!

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, Im a dork I know!

Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs

Public Enemies

The Ugly Truth

Sherlock Holmes


I Love You, Beth Cooper

Planet 51

Friday, Friday, Friday!

Ahh can I just say Friday one more time? ok Friday! (yeah yeah that was 2 times but its friday(now 3) and I adore Fridays(now 4)!! WH is home for 2 whole days, but sadly I will be gone all day tomorrow. :(

But I get to go White Water Rafting! Im not so sure what all will happen to us, and well Im nervous. Im pretty sure something like that>>> will happen and Ill drown, or something to that affect... maybe! I know I'm being irrational, but hey that's me! I have never done it before and new things scare me. But my sisters will be there and so will Mama D! And Mama D is a bigger chicken than I am. So I think I'm pretty much safe if she is going! Oh and we are going to Red Lobster to eat before we come back home, that makes me really happy! I love their crab legs, and the calamari! YUM YUM YUM! Makes me hungry just thinking about it!

Well in other news... me and my father had a falling out. If to long of a story and to painful to tell right now. But I will tell I promise! So I honestly don't know where to go from here with him. I'm really mad! No mad is not the word, super pissed is more like it! But still that's not the right one either. To make a long story short he chose a nasty, skanky, slutty, whore over his own daughter. His house is suppost to be my house too ya know, and he sat right there and let her talk to me like a damn dog. So I'm done. Like I said I promise I will tell y'all the whole story, but right now just thinking about it really pisses me off!

Oh and if you haven't watched Transformers 2 yet, what the hell are you waiting on??? It was amazing!!!! I loved it. I loves it more than the first one!!! After WH got off work the day all hell hit the fan he took me out to see it. AHH-MAZING! I loved it, but I said that already!

So Everyone have a great weekend, I probably wont be on here tomorrow since we are leaving at the crack ass of dawn! But I promise I will be here on Sunday to tell everyone how my trip went!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Pictures of Karmin!

Since I just got done uploading pictures to the computer I figured Id share some new ones of Karmin with you!

75 Things about me

I stole this from Strawberry Ruckus, shes todays FB at SITS! I loved it, and thought I would do my own! PS you should so go check out her blog at

1. I come from a big family, Im the 2nd youngest of 6. Unless you count the kids from my dads other marriages that I never see or talk to, then Im the 2nd youngest of 11!

2. I LOVE ranch dressing! I eat it on everything! I love it on pizza, chicken, potatoes, etc.

3. I want to get a pet cat. I dont know why but I do. But sadly I cant cause Im allergic... stupid cats!

4. I collect Little Mermaid stuff. And I have ALOT of her stuff. I have loved her since I was little and still do.

5. WH Sleeps on a pillow that a a Little Memaid slip on it! Thats love right there people! LOL

6. I hate rude people. I feel really sorry when people are mean to "food service workers" aka people that work at Micky Ds, or BK, or Wendys. Someone has to work there, so be nice! I usually apologize to them if the person in front of me is rude!

7. I let people walk all over me. But Im getting better at standing up for myself.

8. I am a blog stalker. I cant help it. I love to read peoples blog and see whats going on in their life. Sometimes life gets so crazy you forget that other people are going thru things too!

9. I love to take pictures, but seem to always forget to bring my camera!

10. I dont mind doing laundry, and I dont mind putting it away. Its the folding I hate.

11. I LOATHE doing dishes. I know its not enviromentally friendly, but I would rather eat off paper plates than have to wash dishes. PS I have a dish washer that doesnt work... grrrr...

12. I love to play videogames! So does WH. Its one of the many things we do together!

13. I am a myspace addict. I hate to admit it but I am. I could people surf all say long, and usually do. Unless Im reading blogs!

14. I have the biggest feet of any female in my family. Granny wore like a 4, Emmy wears a 6 or a 7, Beck wears like a 6.5, Nay wears like a 5.5 or 6, mom wears like a 5 or 6, and me.. well I wear a 9 sometimes a 10! Where did my huge feet come from????

15. I dont really look forward to my birthday. Its shared with the World Chicken Festival, and most of you think we are crazy for having a festival about chicken.. well heres a HUGE clue about where I live... our county had the first ever KFC in it! Its where Col. Sanders was from. Yay us! (PS I hate the chicken festival)

16. I support gay marriage, and gay rights. So hate me if you want its my choice!

17. Im pro-life. I guess its cause I look out into the world and I see so many people who want kids but can never have any, while others just throw thiers away. I dont think its very fair! But hey thats my opinion feel free to have your own. Just dont bash mine, Im not bashing yours!

18. I love Ellen DeGeneres! I love her talk show. I love her books. And dang does she look good for a woman over 50! And yes she is over 50, her birthday is January 26, 1958!

19. I love peanut butter!

20. I have trust issues because of past relationships. I have been cheated on more times than I can count! Thankfully WH has broken the cycle and showed me that I dont have to settle for 2nd best!

21. I love history. I watch the History Channel all the time!

22. I also love science, and watch the Discovery channels(ya know Discovery heath, Regular Discovery... etc) all the time!

23. I was in band when I was in high school. I played flute, and did colorguard when it was marching season. And yes I am still a band geek, and no, nothing ever happened at band camp... well atleast not to me!

24. I love movies. I love going to see them. I love watching them!

25. I love to cook. I do it all the time for WH.

26. I love to read! Right now my fix is on Twilight and the House of Night books. As soon as I can afford it Im getting more books. Plus it lets WH have his man time while I read... ps man time is when he watches Gundam on the computer... like i have said before, if you dont know what that is you are lucky!!

27. I love McDonalds Sweet Tea with 6 lemons. Yes know thats crazy... but 5 lemons dont make it lemony enough, and 7 makes it too lemony! MWW thinks Im crazy for this, and KAM agrees, but still when we go out we have a good laugh at the "food service worker" who hears 6 lemons and thier mouth drops!

28. I love the colors blue and brown together.

29. I have asthma, and usually have an asthma attack everytime I cry really hard.

30. I love to go fourwheeling, and fishing!

31. I like my spaghetti with pasta and sauce and parm cheese only. I dont like meat in it! Oh and extra garlic bread please!

32. I think its cute when my dog has to go potty and she gets my attention by comming over to me and laying her head donw on me and whineing a little. But usually she head buts me or steps on me!

33. I love breakfast. I could eat it for every meal of the day, all day! I really love hashbrowns with cheese, and scrambled eggs with ketchep and grape jelly... weird I know, and no Im not prego, I have just been eating my eggs like that for years!

34. I make fun of WH for being such a closet geek! He can name off all of the Transformers, and some that arent on the movie but are on the show. He can tell me things about older tv shows that I dont remember (hes 4 years older) or dont bother remembering. He can beat me at every videogame except Guitar hero! And he actually listens to me when I talk about Twilight, and H.O.N! But I wouldnt have him anyother way! Im such a lucky girl!

35. I love to watch football!.

36. Im accident prone. I can trip over my own feet on a flat surface! Needless to say I have many many scars!

37. I dont like it when I go out of my way to be nice to someone and they dont acknowledge it, or ingore it!!

38. I love sherbert. But Baskin Robbins has my favorite Icecream ever!

39. I hate icing on a cake, unless its cream cheese or whipped cream. If its not those two it makes me sick!

40. I love brownies!

41. I adore cheese cake, and Im pretty sure its going to be my wedding cake!!

42. I wish I knew how to tell fake friends from real ones. But Im getting closer to weeding out all the bad ones!

43. I love the way WH smells when he first gets out of the shower.

44. Im not named after anyone in perticular. Emmy, Beck, and Nay are all named after family members!

45. I was suppost to be a boy when I was born. But SURPRISE! I was the 4th girl to come. my big brother wasnt happy.

46. I love Thanksgiving and Halloween.

47. I want another dog. WH wants a Mastiff or a St. Bernard. I want another Great Dane or a Yorkie.

48. I loved The Dinosaurs TV show when I was little. And I actually rented the seasons so I could watch it again!

49. We do not have a computer desk yet. Our other one broke, and was only being held up by the wall and some bricks. So it sits on the floor, and so do we to use it.

50. My dog still thinks she is a lap dog, even though she is a 7.5 month old great Dane!

51. I dont have a good relationship with my mother. I feel like she abandoned me when I was little. As she did with my other siblings. None of us have a good relationship with her. And my sisters pretty much raised me!

52. I lost my Grandma and my cousin in the same year. Needless to say '04 sucked!

53. I love sour candy.

54. I love fruits and veggies!

55. I wanted to be a vegertarian for awhile. But I love chicken to much to give it up. :(

56. I love girly things, even though Im so not girly!

57. Im going White Water Rafting in 2 days. LOL.

58. There is dog hair all over my bed, but since I have brown sheets the black hair kinda blends in..

59. I want to go to college and become a nurse. But Im scared of needles!

60. I need to go to the "women" doctor. I have never done it cause Im scared of people looking at and poking my hooha!

61. I took 6 science classes total in high school. I only needed 3 to graduate! I also took 4 math classes, and only needed 3 to graduate!

62. I honestly dont miss highschool.. at all! Its been almost 2 years since I graduated!

63. There are very few people that I actually HATE, and it takes alot to get me to hate you. But there are 3 people(girls) who have earned my hate. And since I hold grudges like no other. I have a feeling I will always hate them!!

64. I dont like people who use thier kids to get to other people. Its something that I honestly thing is stupid! And the women who say "oh so-and-so is my babys daddy" just to get money off of him, keep him around, make someone mad, etc. needs a good old fashioned ass whooping!

65. As you can probably tell I have been thru alot in my short 18 years(19 in september)! I dont think I would change any of it. Even the heartbreak. It has made me who I am today, and I actually am happy about where I am!

66. I love family get togethers!

67. I love to swim, but dont do it often enough!

68. I put everyone else before me. And sometimes dont think of what I need or want until I absoluetly have to!

69. I dont like to pick where I eat at.

70. I love The Secret Life of the American Teenager!

71. I also love to watch Bones, CSI, Criminal Minds, and House!

72. The first time I saw the ocean I was 15 years old, and I havent seen it since!

73. Im allergic to grass. If I sit in it I get these little red bumps on me in no time, and I start iching, and if someone mows the grass I get a stuffy nose, and sneeze and has a ton of sinus drainage!

74. I love to watch my dog sleep. I guess its because we almost lost her to parvo, that I dont take anything about her for granted.

75. I have been very few places, but the ones I have been to are pretty cool. I have been to NYC, Washington D.C, and Daytona Beach , Florida. Well atleast I think they are cool.

Tell me 5 random things about you!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Im on the verge

Of going crazy!

I cant sleep, and its pushing me toward some "help"(*cough cough* sleeping meds)! I hate the thought of taking anything, but I need some sleep! I'm so sick of staying up hours upon hours tired as can be but just cant fall asleep!! Its driving me nuts, let alone the fact that WH is about to suffocate me with a pillow if I don't quit waking him up to keep me entertained until I can go to sleep! Hes really not so happy about that.. and personally I think its funny!

Speaking of sleep, I think Karmin could sleep thru anything... unless I get up and move! I swear that dog sleeps all day long, and yes I am a bit jealous of the fact that she gets sleep and I don't! Just yesterday I was sitting on the couch watching TV and her big butt decides she needs the whole couch, so she proceeds to take her feet and push me off the couch. Shes done the same thing to my mother. Which is quite funny since my mother is not a dog person, and she really doesn't like big dogs... muahhahahah... so much for that Karmins huge, at 7 months she weighs like 75-80 lbs and is almost as tall as me when I stand her on her hind legs. Ahh the joys of having a part dog part - part horse for a pet! LOL!!

Anyways, since I'm pretty sure I wont be getting any sleep for awhile(I know I said drugs, but I barely take Advil for a headache) I guess that I'm going to brush up on some new recipes, and try to find some way to make the bed more comfortable. Cause I'm pretty sure that's what is causing all the sleepless nights!

Oh and only 1 more day till my sister turns 30! And only 3 more days till White Water Rafting.. WOOHOO! Plus that's one whole day of WH having the house to himself, but I'm pretty sure he will go hang out with Captain America and JimBo. And he can watch his dorky TV show without me griping about it, yay no Gundam for me.. and trust me if you don't know what it is your lucky!!!

PS I found a really cute picture of my sisters and myself at Becks baby shower. So I thought I would share the glory of it and my sisters big belly!

Nay, Beck, Emmy, and myself!
oh yea and baby Jessie in the belly!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Theres no place like home

Cue the Wizard of Oz music and my lovely sisters reciting the rest of that scene.

But seriously I am so glad to be back home. My how I have missed thee! One thing I have learned though, when I decided to have children I dont really want big age gaps. But I guess whatever happens right!?

Ok so for the funniest quote of my little trip to the in laws house. I have to give you the background story on it, Em is 4 years old. and she hates storms. The whole time I was over there it would storm off and on. So yesterday, during a really bad thunderstorm Em decides shes freaking out

Em: Im scared sissy
Me: Its ok hunny I wont let anything happen to you
Em: Well I dont see how you can protect me!
Me:*fighting back the laughter* Im sure that I can protect you
Em: *rolls eyes at me* Ohhhkay, if you say so... *proceeds to be attached to my hip/leg*

Ahhh so cute!
So all in all I had a good time, Karmin on the other hand slept most of the time because the girls think that she is a doll. And all I got from Karmin was the "how can you let them do this to me" look. Which made me laugh more. The good thing is Karmin knows shes very loved over there!

P.S. Im super excited for this comming weekend! I get to go white water rafting!!! Nay is turning 30 the 25th of this month. Or in 2 days! God love her! Shes stressing out about it. She orginally wanted to go skydiving, but since none of us jumped at the chance, Emmy said well what about indoor skydiving! Well they looked it up, and for about 5 mins, it costs over $40. Which according to her aint worth that! So she decided on white water rafting. So me, Emmy, Beck, and Nay are going saturday! And Captain America and JimBo get babysiting duty!

OH and I just found out that 2 more of my friends are getting married, and one more is having a baby! Yay for the baby boom in L-Town!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Wont be on for a while

Im going to the FMIL house while her and FFIL are going out of state. Im going to be watching my 3 FSIL! Im excited! B. is 12 and shes more of the sit and watch tv all day. And then L. is 7 and I have a feeling I will be playing alot of house with her and Em. Em is 4 and so adorable! I bought some coloring books, chalk, and something else. I have it in a tote bag ready to go. Right now Im doing laundry!

I hate laundry!

I found some more cute pictures of Karmin!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Family, PMS, and Weight

So as of today my beautiful niece is 1 month old. How awsome is that! And might I add how beautiful is she!! I love her so much! And of course I love my other nieces too. I happen to have 2 other nieces, Hay-Bug and Tater-Bug! Hay is 11, and Tater is 13, soon to be 14 in Nov. Tater is also Jessie's big sister! What an age difference, but hey I guess it runs in the family, since all my siblings are 10+ years older than me. Well except my little brother, who swears that even though he is a year younger he is two years taller! WTF I know. But thats my family for ya! Ill post more pics of my crazy family as I get them. and trust me, there will be more. We have Fourth of July comming up, and that means HUGE cook-out at Daddy Randys. And lots of fun times to be captured on film, or in my case of SD memory card!
In other news, I havent been sleeping well lately. Like having been sleeping at all! I cant get comfortable anymore. I hate the new bed. It really sucks! So Im more irritable than usual. Thank God I have a great man that understands sometimes just walking away is really the best. Hell I think I started a fight last night cause he wouldnt go take a shower when I thought it was time to... I swear AF must be close! Yep just checked and its in 8 days. No wonder Im such a bitch! Yet again a huge thanks to God that he sent me a man that actually understands my weird mood swings, and all that craziness that comes with being a girl.
In other other news. I think I need to lose some weight. I checked my weight last night and its about 145 lbs. Yay me who has packed on about 20 lbs of extra weight in a year and some. Which I know isnt really a lot, but when your 5'2" like I am, 20 lbs is alot! Plus I have a new road map of strech marks on my thighs thanks to the lovely cycle of loseing the weight and gaining it right back. *sigh* The only downside to the weight loss is I lose my boobs, yet another *sigh* Oh well for now I guess Im just going to try to play with Karmin more, maybe me and Wh could go walking at night after he gets off work. And we could take the dog. Kill two birds with one stone! We will see how that goes! Wish me luck!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Pulling Engines and Skanky girls, What a weekend!

So over the weekend I help my WH pull his engine out of his truck. OMG what was I thinking offering to help.. I know absolutely nothing about trucks. OK, well I can change/check my oil, and my tire, and put some gas in it, thats about it! I think I had a mental moment, and totally lost my mind. I helped forever, and then the usual me got bored, so I grabed a book and watched him finish unbolting everything while I read. Yay me for at least being there for him. Besides I think I mostly got in the way! After the thing was out and they, they being my grandpa and him, were putting it on the engine stand, I went back to the house. My part was finished, and I had to cook.

The day before yesterday.. Saturday I went and had a mini girls night/day. WH had one of his buddys over and he was suppost to be helping him pull the engine, as you can tell he didnt do crap but get in the way, but I digress. I went and hung out with KAM and her little sister. We swam and I made my wonderful Cream Cheese Cookies. Then ALJT came over cause her hubby was out with the guys and we proceeded to gossip about who we graduated with is prego, which is ALOT! My town is totally having a baby boom. Anyways, while we are gossiping(I was mostly listening... I already knew all of those who were named) KAM checked her myspace. A mutal friend of ours is dating the really skanky girl. Im not normally one to judge, but when she ruined my last relationship because she said that the guy I was with was her baby daddy and put me thru 9 months of hell, only to find out that he was a really shitty guy and totally NOT the dad! Now she is putting KAM thru the same thing(same baby.. she still doesnt know who the father is, its really really sad, I feel sorry for the poor little guy)! So she checked the guys myspace and he had a comment conversation between him and the skanky girl on there. it went something like:

Him: Whos Be***?

Her: Oh shes Hu***s grandmama, shes MWW mom. Yeah I know what your thinkin

Him:Oh, is he the dad?

Her: No. I told you that his dad doesnt come around, its best that way.

WTF. She just said N-O PERIOD! why the hell is she doing this to KAM, I know me and her havent always been like we are now, but WTF shes still my bestie, and probably will always be. I know what shes going thru, hello she did the same damn thing to be, but KAM is kinda lucky! She didnt have the whole waiting for the baby to be born to find out anything. Their DNA test will be done like the 25th of this month. Im so excited for them. I know its not her mans, hes to head over hills for KAM to have messed around. And like I said that girl is skanky. OH and to top it off, another mutual friend is getting tested by the same girl, on the same day. I gues Karma bite her in the ass!

Anyways Karmin did the CUTEST thing the other day, I was giving her a kiss and I took a picture while I was doing it and she made the funniest face.

I swear she loves her mamas kisses, even though this doesnt show it! LOL

Friday, June 12, 2009

First post

So like I said, I'm from an annoyingly small town in Kentucky. And just in case your wondering, yes I love me some fried chicken. hehe.
At this moment in my life there is nothing going on that huge. I mean me and my man, Ill call him my WH-wonderful honey, are doing great and going strong. I love him more now than I did in the beginning, and I just grow to love him more and more each day. Yeah, yeah, yeah... I'm young, and dumb and don't know what I'm talking about.. heard it all before people. And I have done my fair share of stressing out if hes the one or not. Last time I just figured I was with the one, JBC, and was about to get married, FYI I would be getting married tomorrow if his dumb ass hadn't cheated and knocked up that other chick, stupid him for having sex with someone else! Well I got smart and I got rid of him.
Here I am with WH and I couldn't be happier. I remind him weekly that he could, and probably should try to find someone better. But he just gives me his wonderful smile, and tells me that there's no need for that, he loves me and that's all he really cares about. *sigh* I love him. And I really love the fact that he pus up with my P.M.D.D. or P.P.M.S as he likes to call it, which stands for permanent PMS. Cant ya tell he loves me so much! Anyways.. all is well here in my small ass town. Wait, I forgot to tell you the huge news, we got a new Italian restaurant.. yay us.

God love my small town, and my WH, I don't know what I would do without him!