Im on the verge

Of going crazy!

I cant sleep, and its pushing me toward some "help"(*cough cough* sleeping meds)! I hate the thought of taking anything, but I need some sleep! I'm so sick of staying up hours upon hours tired as can be but just cant fall asleep!! Its driving me nuts, let alone the fact that WH is about to suffocate me with a pillow if I don't quit waking him up to keep me entertained until I can go to sleep! Hes really not so happy about that.. and personally I think its funny!

Speaking of sleep, I think Karmin could sleep thru anything... unless I get up and move! I swear that dog sleeps all day long, and yes I am a bit jealous of the fact that she gets sleep and I don't! Just yesterday I was sitting on the couch watching TV and her big butt decides she needs the whole couch, so she proceeds to take her feet and push me off the couch. Shes done the same thing to my mother. Which is quite funny since my mother is not a dog person, and she really doesn't like big dogs... muahhahahah... so much for that Karmins huge, at 7 months she weighs like 75-80 lbs and is almost as tall as me when I stand her on her hind legs. Ahh the joys of having a part dog part - part horse for a pet! LOL!!

Anyways, since I'm pretty sure I wont be getting any sleep for awhile(I know I said drugs, but I barely take Advil for a headache) I guess that I'm going to brush up on some new recipes, and try to find some way to make the bed more comfortable. Cause I'm pretty sure that's what is causing all the sleepless nights!

Oh and only 1 more day till my sister turns 30! And only 3 more days till White Water Rafting.. WOOHOO! Plus that's one whole day of WH having the house to himself, but I'm pretty sure he will go hang out with Captain America and JimBo. And he can watch his dorky TV show without me griping about it, yay no Gundam for me.. and trust me if you don't know what it is your lucky!!!

PS I found a really cute picture of my sisters and myself at Becks baby shower. So I thought I would share the glory of it and my sisters big belly!

Nay, Beck, Emmy, and myself!

oh yea and baby Jessie in the belly!

Family, PMS, and Weight

So as of today my beautiful niece is 1 month old. How awsome is that! And might I add how beautiful is she!! I love her so much! And of course I love my other nieces too. I happen to have 2 other nieces, Hay-Bug and Tater-Bug! Hay is 11, and Tater is 13, soon to be 14 in Nov. Tater is also Jessie's big sister! What an age difference, but hey I guess it runs in the family, since all my siblings are 10+ years older than me. Well except my little brother, who swears that even though he is a year younger he is two years taller! WTF I know. But thats my family for ya! Ill post more pics of my crazy family as I get them. and trust me, there will be more. We have Fourth of July comming up, and that means HUGE cook-out at Daddy Randys. And lots of fun times to be captured on film, or in my case of SD memory card!

In other news, I havent been sleeping well lately. Like having been sleeping at all! I cant get comfortable anymore. I hate the new bed. It really sucks! So Im more irritable than usual. Thank God I have a great man that understands sometimes just walking away is really the best. Hell I think I started a fight last night cause he wouldnt go take a shower when I thought it was time to... I swear AF must be close! Yep just checked and its in 8 days. No wonder Im such a bitch! Yet again a huge thanks to God that he sent me a man that actually understands my weird mood swings, and all that craziness that comes with being a girl.

In other other news. I think I need to lose some weight. I checked my weight last night and its about 145 lbs. Yay me who has packed on about 20 lbs of extra weight in a year and some. Which I know isnt really a lot, but when your 5'2" like I am, 20 lbs is alot! Plus I have a new road map of strech marks on my thighs thanks to the lovely cycle of loseing the weight and gaining it right back. *sigh* The only downside to the weight loss is I lose my boobs, yet another *sigh* Oh well for now I guess Im just going to try to play with Karmin more, maybe me and Wh could go walking at night after he gets off work. And we could take the dog. Kill two birds with one stone! We will see how that goes! Wish me luck!